Boys just don't like me.

So I've just found out that the guy I have a crush on just likes me as a friend. Deep down I knew he didn't feel that strongly about me. But it still hurts. I let part of me get my hopes up. I let a little piece of me hold on to that hope that he might just like me back. I really fell for this guy, and now I'm wishing I wouldn't have let myself fall so hard. I wasn't prepared for how much the drop was gonna hurt. Sure, I'll get over it and move on. I always do. I'm used to disappointment. I just feel really lonely right now. So many of my friends are in relationships and to be honest, I am so jealous. I want that feeling you get when you're with that person you care so much about. And I'm tired of being told that it's going to happen for me, because you know, it isn't happening. Majority of guys around are just not worth it. They're trash, scum and whores. Either cheating on their boyfriends or looking for the latest hook up. I want a real genuine guy. And at this rate, it looks like I'll never find him.

It's like I'm on house arrest...

So far my summer has been mighty boring. I've been stuck at home doing absolutely nothing. Work is giving me no hours, I'm barely working 10 hours a week. I don't have a car to drive right now. It's like I'm on house arrest! Maybe I'm just a really boring person. I'm just hoping this isn't a sign of things to come for the rest of my summer.

On a positive note! I went to the movies with a really cool guy last night. I had such a blast. Not to mention he's super adorable and I'm mad crushing on him... What sucks the most is I can't read him. I have no idea if he likes me or not! Oh well, I'm just gonna be myself and let whatever happens happen.

P.S. I'm totally gonna start working out again this summer. My goal is to get a body like this hottie. Haha

And now the fun begins

Ahh, so it's been a while since my last post. I was very busy with the last couple weeks of school I didn't have much time for any blogging. But now I'm done with school for the summer, I've passed all my classes and it's time for the fun to begin! I don't really have much planned for the summer as of yet, other than to just have fun. I did have a friend suggest to me that I make goals for the summer and right now that doesn't sound like a bad idea. So here are some goals for my summer.

Goals of Summer '09
1. Find a summer romance.
2. Go on an adventure.
3. Discover something new about myself.
4. Write a book.

So I know that's a pretty short list, but it's all I've got right now. I'll definitely be coming back and adding more when I come up with some. So until then, enjoy your summer!